RRMC: Rant Five - Cosplay Party!

Kadis: -dressed up as her OC- Hi everyone! It's time for another installment of Random Rants!

Himuro: -dressed as Gilbert (Pandora Hearts)- Tch...why did we have to dress up too? -tugs at the jacket-

Kadis: For fun! -giggles- You make a good Gil, Himu.

Tsumi: -dressed as Sharon (Pandora Hearts), giggles- He does, doesn't he? -leans up and kisses his cheek-

Himuro: -blush- W-well, if Tsu says so...

Kadis: Yay, thanks, Tsumi! You got him on board! Anyways, readers, if you haven't figured it out yet, the theme for this rant is anime cons and cosplay!

Manako: -dressed as Sugisaki (Seitokai no Ichozen)- "My harem, my harem!" -laughs- Kaddy, I love this character. His pants are amazing too.

Kadis: It's perfect for you, Mana. And the pants--

Kuroi: --are mine! -rushes past Kaddy and tubs on Mana's pants- C'mon, give 'em up!

Kadis: -blinks- O-oh yeah, um...Kuroi's a new addition to us...

Kuroi: -dressed as Ciel (Kuroshitsuji)- Yeah yeah, I'm Kuroi. -tugs on the pants- Kaddy can I enter him? -tilts head-

Everyone: ...

Kuroi: ...what? Did I say something wrong? -tilts head-

Izumo: -dressed as Sebastian (Kuroshitsuji), picks Kuroi up and holds him- ...don't say things like that, young one.

Kuroi: -squirms- Hey, put me down! I only wanted to make him take his pants off!

Izumo: ...don't say such rude things. Apologize.

Kuroi: Tch, ho do you think you are? You can’t make me do that! Only Kaddy can!

Kadis: Huh? Me? Okay then. Say you’re sorry so we can get back on track!

Kuroi: …-pouts- Fiiiiine, sorry. But I still want the pants! >.<

Izumo: –kisses his cheek and sets him down- Good boy.

Manako: …things are getting a little too gay in here for my tastes.

Shikyo: –dressed as Alice (Pandora Hearts)—I agree, harem-boy.

Kadis: -hides- W-why are you here too?! U-um, readers, Shikyo’s another new addition to our little group…

Manako: Another cute girl! -kneels in front of her and produces  ring- I love you. Marry me.

Shikyo: …-kicks him in the face- Go to Hell, dumbass. God, I’m not some little toy for your amusement.

Manako: -bleeds- I…should have expected that…-passes out-

Shiro: -dressed as Frau (07 Ghost)- Don’t come into my pack causing trouble, young lady…

Kadis: -peeks out from her hiding place and runs to Shiro- Hey…why is she here…?

Shiro: -shrugs and pets her head- I don’t know…I’ll protect you though. In case she tries anything.

Himuro: Um…wasn’t this supposed to be a rant? Now it just seems more like  party. A cosplay party.

Kadis: …oh yeah…I forgot again. Heh…oh well ^^

Himuro: -twitch- What the Hell do you mean “oh well”? You little brat…

Kadis: -clings to Shiro- Don’t hurt me, Himu! W-we can still get back to the subject at hand, right? There’s still time, isn’t there? I mean, Akaru hasn’t even shown up yet!

Shiro: -scratches his head nervously- Uh…well…Akaru refuses to come out of his room…he thinks the character’s too embarrassing…

Kadis: Eh? But it’s practically perfect for him! I bet Neko would think so too! She’d love it on him!

Himuro: If he isn’t gonna show up, let’s just end this thing!

Shikyo: Tch, I agree. -pulls on her shirt- This thing is hot…-undoes the first few buttons-

Manako: -sits up suddenly, staring with wide eyes- I…I won’t give up on you…I think I’ve fallen in love with you.

Shikyo: …-kicks him again, harder- Didn’t I tell you to…

Manako: -blocks her kick with one arm- Not this time, sweetie. I love when girls play rough, but that first blow was a bit much.

Shikyo: Tch, you…

Himuro: -laughing hysterically- Finally, there’s a girl who can put my older brother in his place!

Tsumi: -smiles- Even I have to say he’s met his match with this one…one woman who won’t fall for his charm.

Manako: -pouts- Hey, I love this! She’s an actual challenge for me! It kinda turns me on, actually… Anyways, I won’t give up on her!

Kadis: …Mana, she’ll kill you.

Kuroi: -clinging to Izumo, snickering- Hey, Shi, it’s no fun if ya kill him! He’s cute, why not humor him and play his games for a while? -nuzzles Izumo-

Izumo: …-slight blush, pets his head-

Shikyo: And why should I listen to you, homo?

Shiro: -sigh- Please don’t start problems…

Kuroi: -purrs- It’s pointless trying to stop her, you know.

Kadis: W-well, everyone, it seems we’ve gotten very off-track, so we’ll see you all ne--

Akaru: W-wait! -runs toward them, dressed as Labrador (07 Ghost)-

Kadis: Hey, you showed up after all!

Akaru: -blush- Yeah…but this costume is a little embarrassing…

Tsumi: Aw, it isn’t at all, Aka-chan. It’s so cute on you.

Akaru: T-Tsumi…

Himuro: -mutters- Of course he shows up now…

Kadis: Hehe…well now that everyone’s here, should we get started?

Himuro: Wha…? Kaddy, it’s too late now!  C’mon!

Kadis: -pouts- Oh, alright…next time then! We’ll get serious. See you!

Shikyo: -mutters- Thank god…

Personal Rants: Eh...

Kadis: It's time for another personal rant. It's been a while since I posted in this blog period, so I guess this works.

Warning: For those who don't wanna hear about my self pity and personal problems, don't read this! The beginning may have a bit of stuffs about me that you might wanna read though. Only if you care.

Anyways, that's done. -nods- Just felt that warning was needed.

Basically, I just need to let off some steam. I'm upset over something that no one else seems to understand. And it's better than holding it all in again. That's led to some pretty bad stuff in the past. At one point, I was even taken to the hospital by the police because it got so bad.

I always held stuff in and it got bad, very bad. One tiny little thing set me off and I just...exploded. Attacked my family. Nearly took a knife and stabbed myself. Of course, I didn't though. The cops were called. Took me crying in cuffs to the hospital. I won't go into too many details on that.

Things got better after that. I found ways to vent and it helps. Usually, it's writing. Hey, like nows. Could ranting even be considered as writing...? Maybe.

Anyways, back on topic. Yes, writing. Stories, usually. I'm not good with poetry and shit like that. Hell, I'm not very good with stories, but that doesn't stop me. Wanna read some? Check out my story blog: A Loss of Words.

I tend to pity myself a bit, yes. And I tend to go a bit overboard with it. But I can't help that. You can't make me stop that, it just...happens.

I feel bad about myself. I have very low self esteem and always put myself down. And when people are yelling at me, disagreeing with my beliefs, they just make me feel worse. Instead of saying "I get it, I understand" everyone says "Why should I give a fuck? I don't care." They don't really. They don't try to make me feel better. They don't even try to understand. And you know? Sometimes I understand why.

It's because I'm invisible. To pretty much everyone. Passed up, ignored. I blend in with the background. And you know? Sometimes I want to be noticed. Why else do I tend to blow things out of proportion? It's because I want people to notice me, I want people to care. Being in the background is my natural place, but you know it isn't always my favorite place to me. I want to have people pay attention to me. You can't tell me you haven't wanted it too, reader. You'll do anything for any kind of attention, whether it's good or bad. Trust me. We loners, we just want to be loved and noticed too.

That may be because of our low self esteem that we'll do anything for attention. We'll purposely start arguments. We'll continually drag things out instead of dropping them right away. We'll keep putting ourselves down and denying any compliments given to us. Because we want people to give us the attention.

I think that's it...I'm done ranting for nows since I feel a bit better. See ya next time =w=

Personal Rants - School + Job = ...?

Kadis: Time for something new again. Since I kind of went off the last time on my own, I'm bringing in these personal rants. They're just by me and me alone. My characters have nothing to do with these.

Anyways, this is the deal: Kaddy wants...no, needs a job. And everyone's telling her she wouldn't be able to do it. They're saying things like, "You wouldn't be able to keep up with schoolwork" or, "You'd just come up and fool around online and forget about your homework completely." They're wrong.

For the first time in a long time, I'm actually doing pretty good with my grades. Sure I've missed a few things here and there, but nothing too major. I understand most of what's going on this year. Even the math, which is my worst subject. I've never been good at math. But the reason behind that is mainly because I never took algebra. I took Geometry three years in a row...but I've never taken algebra one.

I just barely passed my classes last year. The reason? I'm a procrastinator. I put off my homework. Because I don't like it. But then again, who does? No one wants to do it, but they do.

Last year, I also had about three actual study halls. And lunch too, counted as a study hall for me since I didn't eat lunch. I could normally finish any homework during those periods.

Another thing, last year. I had a tutor. Sort of. A friend of mine helped me with my math. Nana paid him for it. It helped a little.

This year, things are different. For once, I don't need too much help with things. I actually understand them without much help. With math class this year, the material is sort of easy, but even then I don't understand a lot of it. I guess you could just say I'm easily confused by a lot of things.

But I've found a friend online that can help me. He's much smarter than me in all subjects, seeing as how he's already graduated from high school and is now in college. He's like a brother to me, hence the reason I call him "Brother" all the time. When I don't understand anything, I go to him for help. Mostly with math though. And it not only benefits me, but him as well. I get the help I need, he gets to practice his math too so he doesn't forget it. It works out for both of us.

Something else different this year? I have absolutely no study halls. No time to finish any missed homework. Even lunch this year. I can't really do anything then because they shortened the lunch periods. I can't do anything then.

One more thing. My tutor doesn't go to our school anymore. He's decided to go to cyber school instead. So now, of course my mind's going to wander towards Hakuren (my laptop's name).

The only help I can get is from Brother. And that's fine. Until the day comes that he can't help me with something. Then I'm screwed. I don't know what I'll do.

For now, this year, I'm doing pretty well. My grades are okay and I'm doing pretty well on tests and quizzes. You know what I got on my last two math quizzes? A C and a B. A B! That's a first for me on a math quiz! Because I can understand it. It's stuff we learned last year too. And I didn't understand it at all last year! I don't think I've scored that high on a test or quiz in math since sixth grade.

Ahem, anyways...

Now, I need a job for multiple reasons.

The first is because it may help a bit with my self esteem. I have very low self esteem and I'm always putting myself down. I think that maybe having a job would help with that. It would help me think better of myself and it would make me feel important. Which is good for me because I always feel that I'm useless and worthless and such.

Another reason would be for a bit of spending money. Which I need, badly. You know what I get as an allowance? $20. A month. And you know, sometimes I don't even get that much. Sometimes I get only what's left over from some shopping trips. Which is practically nothing. Usually just change. I can't eve buy my friends and family birthday and Christmas gifts with that!

$20 a month isn't going to get me the things I really want. And sure, I don't want much, but they're definitely expensive. I want a new Zune with a larger memory. Right now I only have an 8gb one. Doesn't hold much at all. Half of the memory is already full. What I want is either a 16gb, which costs about $168. Or an 80gb, which is about $218. With what I'm getting now, it'll be years before I can afford one. And that's without worrying about clothes and other expenses.

Something else I would love that would probably take even longer to obtain would be a new laptop. And a good one costs well over $650. There are quite a few I've seen that I like. But they're at least $650. I'm not gonna get one on $20 a month. It'll take twenty years before I can afford that!

Another thing would be for savings. At this rate with the little bit of money I have, I'm not going to get into a good college. I have no money. And with my grades, I'm definitely not going to get a scholarship. I have no college fund. And I'm expected to get into a good college to get a good job in the future? That probably isn't going to happen at this rate. Without a job, I can't get the money I need to get into college.

The final thing is to help Nana with bills and such. I know, I know, the money would technically be mine. But, hey, I can help out her too, right? Bills are building up and we barely get by each month. One of these days we're going to run out of money to pay them and then where would we end up? My sisters and I would end up in a foster home, probably separate ones. And Nana...well, I've no idea what would happen to her. None of us want that.

So, I feel that getting this job would be a good thing, not a bad thing. I'm tired of being oppressed and treated like a child still. I'm seventeen years old now. Sure, it may be difficult to keep up with a few things like homework and such. But I could do it. Everyone is saying that I can't and it's not a good idea. But how do they know? It's something I want to try for myself. If it doesn't work out, then it doesn't work out. But even then, we won't know until we try. I'm not a kid anymore and I can make my own decisions now. For once I'm trying to pick myself up instead of being down in the dumps. And everyone's trying to just rag me back down again. I could do it. It's time to grow up.

Random Rants with my Characters - Rant Five: Gaia Online

Kadis: Well, everyone after a brief hiatus, we're back! This time the topic is about GaiaOnline.com.

Himuro: Oh, here we go...

Kadis: -glares- Shut it... Anyways, Gaia has been doing a ton of layout changes recently but this time Kaddy thinks they've gone way too far.

Nate: Hm...? How so?

Kadis: Well, since they first started all these changes, Kaddy's been skeptical. But now it's obvious. Gaia isn't even trying to be Gaia anymore. At least, that's how Kaddy figures it.

Hime: -tilts head- Sis...um...I think you should explain a bit about the site first...so all those people that don't know about it know exactly what it is...

Kadis: ...oh. OH! Right. Eh heh heh...^^"

Himuro: -.-"

Kadis: Um...Gaia Online is an online community like most others...or so it has gotten to be. There are forums and games and other fun stuff. There are even avatars you can dress up and play with and such. Events are held for some special occasions too. Is that good enough?

Akaru: Seems okay to me...^^

Kadis: Good! -nods- Now, lately Gaia Online has been doing some layout changes that are "meant to make the sites easier for noobs to understand and navigate." Yeah...right. What they've done is made it terribly ANNOYING to navigate.

Shiro: -mutters- Kaddy...this isn't even a rant that has anything that we can really put into...

Kadis: ^^" Sorry, hun. Anyways. First, they implemented a chat feature. And that was okay...not too bad. But kind of annoying. Next big thing that Kaddy hated was the new shop fronts. They aren't badly done, no, but they removed the Shop list from the old navigation bar. And, of course, they leave in the stuff that will get them REAL money. Like the Cash Shop and things like that. Soon after that came the new navigation bar. She loved the old one. Easy to navigate and find places. But they went and changed it. And everything else came crashing down after that. Everyone hated it. I'm sure a ton of people still do. They took out ALL of the links that people used daily and replaced them with links that are annoying to find what people needed to get to. And of course they used the "easy for noobs to understand" excuse. Hello? What about all the old users? We're all super confused and annoyed by it!

Manako: ...we've lost her...

Everyone else: -nods-

Kadis: >.> Shut up... Anyways...the thing that has sent Kaddy completely over the edge now? The new header and footer things. Annoying as Hell. The footer is customizable, yes, and I like that. But it's annoying and overlays over everything, even when it's minimized. I mean, really. And the color scheme? Gaia has lost it completely. They've made that new navbar a sickly blue. And the new footer is brown, of all colors. Those two don't go with purple! Gaia needed to stick with the purple theme!

Nate: Earth to Kaddy...

Kadis: I'm almost done, hush! >.<" All I'm saying is, Gaia isn't even Gaia anymore! What happened to the community that was run by the users? It was even said before by the creator of the site, Lanzer! "Gaia's biggest sponsors are Gaians themselves supporting the site." What happened to that? Gaia isn't about the users anymore, is it? All Gaia seems to care about is getting money and becoming like every other social networking site out there. What happened to you Gaia? I want the old Gaia back!

Himuro: A-and, that's it everyone! Tune in next time!

Kadis: Hey, wait that's my job!"

Anime Rants - Rant One: 07 Ghost

Kadis: -waves- Hi there everyone! Kaddy is starting a new series today! It's been a while since I've done a rant so this should be fun! This new series is about animes I'm currently watching or like starring some of the characters from the show! First up is something I absolutely love! 07 Ghost!

Frau: Tch...how did I get dragged into this? Damn girl...

Castor: Hush now, Frau. It should be fun. -pulls on his ear-

Teito: -mutters- I don't like this either, you know...

Kadis: Both of you be quiet now. -hits them over the head- Follow Castor-san's example.

Labrador: -smelling the flowers- The flowers agree, you know.

Frau: Ow! Why'd ya hit me, damn girl? -rubs his head- You're as bad as Castor over here. Never thought I'd meet another one like him...

Hakuren: -sighs- This is a bit out of control here, isn't it?

Kadis: Hakuren! -huggles- You made it. ^^

Hakuren: ^^" Yes, well, I couldn't miss something like this, now could I? -pats her head- Especially when I get a chance to meet Teito-kun's old friend, Mikage. Where is he anyway?

Teito: He's not here yet...he needs to hurry up though. -squirms- I've missed him!

Mikage: -peeks in the doorway- Hi there! Looks like almost everyone is here. -holds up a bag- I brought cake! -grins-

Labrador: -claps his hands together- Oh, cake? No one told me there would be cake. I'll make some tea then! ^^ -skips off to the kitchen-

Teito: Mikage! -runs to him and hugs him-

Frau: -pulls out his book and looks at it, smirking a little-

Kadis: Okay, Lab-san! -glances over at Frau and tilts head, wandering over to him- What are you reading?

Frau: -tries to hide it- E-er nothing! Go away, damn girl!

Kadis: -takes it and glances it over- ...-twitches and tears it up- You're such a pervert, Frau! Bishops aren't supposed to be perverted!

Frau: -eyes widen- You idiot! Why would you do that?! -picks up the pieces and tries to fix it-

Castor: -laughs- You deserved it, Frau...

Frau: Stupid girl...-glares-

Hakuren: -sits next to Teito and Mikage- So, you're the Mikage that Teito talks about...-smiles and holds out his hand- It's nice to finally meet you. I'm Hakuren Oak.

Mikage: -blinks- No need to be so formal! -laughs- Wait, you're a member of the Oak family too? And...you're friends with Teito? Really?

Teito: Ah, he isn't like Shuuri at all! It's alright ^^

Labrador: -comes back in with cake and tea- ^^ Here everyone! Enjoy!

Kadis- takes a slice of cake and pours a cup of tea- Well everyone, that's it for this time around! See you next time!

Random Rants with my Characters - Rant Four: Fears

Himuro: ...hmph.

Kadis: >.<" I said I was sorry, Himuro!

Manako: Aw, she's too cute, brother, forgive her already...

Kadis: TT.TT He won't do it...anyways...it's starting time! Welcome to the fourth installment of Random Rants! This time, we're talking about fears!

Izuko: Great...>.<"

Kadis: Oh, you two are back! -giggles- Well, just in time! 'Ko can start us off! What's he afraid of?

Izuko: Do I really have to say it...? >.<"

Kadis: Yes, yes! it'll make ya feel better! ^.^

Izuko: TT.TT Okays...-glances at Kentarou- I'm afraid of ghosts...

Hime: -giggles and huggles him- I think it's cute! And it's okay, I'm afraid of ghosts too!

Izumo: ...my fear would have to be being trapped somewhere and not being able to escape...

Kadis: o.o I didn't think you had any fears, Izumo...

Izumo: ...-blushes lightly, looks away and nods-

Kadis: ^^" Well, uh, I have quite a few fears...one would have to be the same as Izumo's. Another is bugs. >.<" I'm easily freaked out by them. Another would be if everyone I cared about disappeared or died. And one more I've been fearing more and more recently that may seem a little silly? Thunderstorms. >.<" Childish, I know...

Manako: -smirks and hugs Kadis- It's alright...-kisses her forehead-

Kadis: O////o

Shiro: -growling, ready to attack- Manako...! I'll kill you!

Manako: -giggles and lets her go- Time to run before Mister Pack Leader kills me! Before I go, my fears would be losing my brother and all the beautiful girls disappearing off the earth! -laughs and runs-

Shiro: -chases him- I said stay away from my mate! >.<

Kadis: >///>" Er...why does this always happen to me...? -sighs- Oh well, at least it's obvious what Shiro-sama's fear is: Manako trying to steal me from him. Never ever gonna happen though.

Kaze: ^^" Don't worry, sis. My fear? Losing you again.

Kadis: Brother...

Himuro: >.>" Uh...can we just finish this now? I wanna go to bed...

Kadis: >.<" Shut up, Himuro! We'll end when I say we end....Akaru, your turn!

Akaru: E-eh, me? Um...my fear...would be being left alone again...

Kadis: Aw, poor Akaru...-huggles him-

Akaru: >////< Mistress...

Kadis: ^^ Sorry. -wanders over to Himuro- Will you at least tell everyone your fear?

Himuro: ...-sighs- Fiiiiiine...God, you're so annoying, Kaddy. My fear would be seeing Tsumi disappear again.

Tsumi: -blushes- Himuro-san...I'd fear not being able to see you again as well...

Kentarou: And I don't want to be away from Kadis-sama! That's my fear! ^.^

Kadis: ^^" I think you just ruined the romantic moment, 'Tarou... Anyways, that's it for this time! Tune in next time for another rant! Bai!

Random Rants with my Characters - Rant three: Nicknames

Kadis: Hi everyone and welcome to the third installment of Random Rants! This time we have a real topic. Today, we're going to talk about nicknames!

Himuro: Do we have to talk about this? -sighs- There's so many more interesting topics out there...

Kadis: Shut up, Himuro. >.> I know you hate me and all, but this is my show and I decide what we do!

Himuro: -pouts- Fine...-mutters- Why Shiro-sama chose this girl as his mate, I'll never know...

Kadis: -glares at him- Anyways...ignoring him now...nicknames! Everyone knows nicknames are given out as a special name that matches a person's personality. Or even as a name that's cuter and easier to say! Today we're gonna discuss all the nicknames of everyone in the pack!

Himuro: -groans- Why...?

Kadis: Shut up already, you! -throws a bottle at his head-

Manako: Hey hey, miss pack leader~ -puts his hand under her chin and smiles- Please, don't kill my brother, okay? I'll make it worth your while...-winks-

Shiro: -growls- Manako...stay away from my Mate >.< -tackles him-

Manako: -yelps- Oh, no, Shiro-sama~ You know I don't like guys~ -resists-

Hime: -giggles- Yaoi times?

Kadis: Er...>////> Time to get back on track here! So, nicknames! Uh, well, mine's Kaddy. Just because I think "Kadis" doesn't match my personality too well.

Kentarou: I don't really have a nickname, though Kadis-sama...-thinks- Unless "Ghost boy" counts...

Manako: -still struggling against Shiro- Mine is Mana! Just because it's shorter than "Manako"...and it attracts more ladies~ -smirks-

Shiro: >.<" Just stay away from my mate! -pushes him away-

Manako: ^^" I can't promise you anything! -chuckles and walks off-

Hime: Aw, I wanted attention from Mana-kun...-pouts- Oh well! -giggles- I don't really have a nickname since my name is short enough...but Mana-kun and 'ko-chan call me "princess" since that's what my name means!

Kadis: >.>" Are you sure that's why they call you that?

Hime: Um...I'm pretty sure...

Kadis: Um...yeah...anyways...Oh, that's right, my cousins are out today...hm, darn, and I wanted them to tell everyone about their nicknames~

Himuro: Can we just finish this now?

Kadis: Not till we tell them your nickname...-giggles- "Ro-ro..."

Himuro: -blushes- H-how'd you know about that?!

Kadis: I refuse to reveal my sources! Tune in next time when we find another interesting topic to talk about! Bai bai!

Himuro: Hey, wa--